killing lies

 

 

 

 

I looked you in the eyes,
told you these lies.
It started so innocent.
I want to take it back,

But it is too late.

I lied to seem better.
To feel better.
I lied so you would like me.
To make you love me.

It worked.

The truth did not interest you.
But the lies,
you laughed,
cried,
smiled,
cared.
So I continued.

You will never understand,
the feeling of not being good enough.
Because you are always the best,
while I am nothing.

 

Now i regret.

I hate telling them,

over and over again.

But you will still never understand.

You will never love me again.

So I just keep looking you in the eyes,

telling the same old lies.

so sorry

I told you it was popularity.

You struggled so hard.

I told you it was friends.

 

You desperately needed it.

Never be the one to stand alone.

 

You belived me.

I was right then.

Now you’re old.

So ill.

And regret like hell.

 

tired / Beatles

“No rest for the wicked” they say.

But I say the wicked are sleeping.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Please, don’t wake me, no, don’t shake me
Leave me where I am – I’m only sleeping

Everybody seems to think I’m lazy
I don’t mind, I think they’re crazy
Running everywhere at such a speed
Till they find there’s no need

Please, don’t spoil my day, I’m miles away.

 

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ugly. as hell.

You can try to change.

But you will never be good enough.

 

 

Breathe

 

 

I’ve got a dark secret.

Do you?

 

 

 

Walking back

Those days.

Friends coming like drifting air.

Dancing. Laughing. Playing.

Even thoughts disappear.

Those days and then these days.

So different.

Welcome to me

This is just a test.